Queenie

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 23:48:24 GMT

Cross Posted in my GJ

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 22:11:49 GMT

I thought I would post this for those who don't have my gj username. I also figured i'd cut tag it, for those who do have my gj, so they don't have to read it again. It tells why I'm not gonna be around for a little while.

If that means I loose my characters at some places, oh well. This is something I have to do.

So I figured I'd tell you all what happened on valentine's day for me this year. Casey got me a box of chocolates. My brother got me a box of chocolates. My grandparents gave me a $25 check, and my mom sent me flowers with a note that said "You'll always be a daddy's girl, but know you're my babygirl too. I love you Mom." Made me cry when I read it.

The timing was perfect though. Because my brother, Ally (his g/f) and my mom had just sat down for lunch. The doorbell rang, and Corey went to see who it was and he was like "It's for Anya." I had no clue who would be coming over because I knew all my friends were at work. When I get there, it's this black lady with this bright smile, holding this gorgeous arrangement of flowers. I signed for them and walked back in totally confused.

Corey and Ally were all smiles, like they knew, and momma was crying, but still smiling. I read the card and I just started bawling. Then they told me that everyone knew. My grandparents, Corey, Ally, my cousin (Zachary's mom). Everyone knew, and no one told me. Because NO ONE in my family knows how to keep a secret. They all really got me this year. It was an incredible day for me.

It's what I needed, because I was slowly sinking into a funk, because of my dad. It's been hitting me alot harder lately and I don't really understand why. I suppose it's because I was at a really rough/bad stage with my dad when he committed suicide. And that bad place was because of a choice I had to make. So I've been beating myself up over it alot lately.

And right now, I'm just, not in a good spot with myself. My medication's not working, I might need a stronger dosage of my Zoloft and my Xanax. Because I sit here writing this, I'm bawling my eyes out. I woke up today and had to go to Sprint to deal with my phone, and it wasn't good, so that started it all up again.

I just want to crawl in my bed, go back to sleep and wake up, hoping that it's better then. Apart of me, seriously wants to go take that whole bottle of Xanax and never wake up. Though I would never do that.

But anyway.. I just wanted to let you all know, that I might not be around for a few days. Even if the weather is clear enough for me to get a connection. I'm in this funk, and I don't want to bring others down with it. I don't want it to conflict with my characters. I'm sorry and I love you all..

:-* Jordan you're the best, and the one thing that does keep me smiling these days. I love you.

Wed, 28 Jan 2004 05:33:35 GMT

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY JORDAN!

it's 12:33 in Michigan

Lovely Talk with Jordan..

Fri, 28 Nov 2003 05:27:03 GMT

~~I didn't feel like editing everything.. so enjoy..~~ ok so i edited it.

Jor: hey how was thanksgiving?

Me: it was cool. hectic with all the family.. lol but cool.. my brother kidnapped me for a few minutes.. and we went out back under this huge tree like fort that's in our backyard.. it was here from the previous owners.. anyway.. we both smoked a little to get our nerves under control, and then we shared a quick cigarette.. before anyone knew we were gone.. lol

Me: cause i'm talking family we haven't seen in like years

Jor: damn

Me: yeah it was crazy.. but they're all finnnnnnallllly gone

Jor: that's good

Jor: my brother and sister, and niece are here

Me: awwww that's cool

Jor: we had a small thanksgiving thing. i'm exhausted, and i didn't eat anything. so i can't blame it on the turkey i didn't eat

Me: that's the reason.. you NEED to eat something

Jor: yeah but i'm not hungry.

Me: have you seen jc's new video?

Jor: nah

Me: not interested?

Jor: not really. i'll see it eventually

Jor: i don't like him when he talks about lesbians

Me: i actually have to say he's somewhat hot in the video :-X

Jor: or whatever song that is

Jor: i only like him when he dreams about sex all day long

Me: lol

Jor: that's going to be a great club song

Jor: he should've put that out first

Me: it's going to be played out really fast.. the think about sexin

Me: you need to stop forgetting about brad

Jor: i suppose

Jor: yeah i know

Me: they've gotten alot more people over there.

Me: and i have an oober cute icon of brad and britney

Jor: any icon with brad in it is cute.

Me: haha

Me: but it's brad AND britney

Jor: see? has brad in it

Me: *sto*

Jor: lol

Jor: justy's gonna be on tv tomorrow

Me: i know

Jor: i gotta write it on a post it, so i don't forget to record.

Me: *pets*

Me: if i catch it.. i catch it.. if i don't.. i'm not gonna loose sleep

Jor: gasp

Jor: he's my world.

Me: taylor used to be your world.. *coughs*trader*coughs*

Jor: no, fe

Jor: ugh

Jor: no taylor's my life

Jor: and the name of my pink vibrator, so there.

Me: ok.. you sooo didn't have to go there

Me: and just for that.. i'm posting this

Jor: what? its pink and sparklyh

Jor: NOO

Me: hahaha

Jor: i have one named justin too

Jor: and he's... huge.

Me: *rae*

Jor: kris knows about my vibrators

Me: you name your vibrators?

Jor: you gotta name them because it's silly moaning out "OH VIBRATOR!"

Jor: so instead you use names

Me: *dies*

Jor: taylor's pink sparkly and gel like

Jor: justin's hard and huge

Jor: and my lube is named christina

Jor: cause it's... yeah i won't go there.

Me: i'm quite curious now

Jor: cause its always wet and slick.

Jor: like a slut.

Me: oh god..

Me: i'm sorry i asked

Jor: lmao

Me: and i so have to post this conversation

Jor: nooooooooo

Jor: you are evil

Me: you love the attention :-P

Jor: me? never

Me: yeah.. and i'm fucking justin timberlake

Jor: mmm god i would love to

Me: yeah i know

Jor: you know, after fucking someone that great, you couldn't do anyone else

Me: personally..

Me: i think justin's all talk..

Jor: psssh

Me: i do..

Jor: i think in bed he'd be tender and loving

Me: there's a differences between arrogance and confidence.. and he's no where near the line of confidence..

Jor: he must be good, because he's been with so many big named people

Me: britney spears.. and cameron diaz.. are the only two big names.. the others are rumors.. and alyssa was nothing but a fuck toy, who was wanting to put herself out there.. and she knew justin would do that

Jor: yeah, true

Jor: i still think he'd be good

Jor: i wouldn't last long

Jor: i'd be like "oh jus..."*creams*

Me: you keep adding more fuel to the fire

Jor: yeah but i mean, i get.. i couldn't ever see justin live

Jor: he's like, my god

Me: i'm talking about to my post in my journal :-P

Jor: god. but it's true!

Jor: he's so beautiful

Jor: i can't believe i hated him

Me: i'm slowly starting too

Jor: what!

Jor: why!

Me: i don't know.. he's just really irking me these days

Jor: no hateration.

Jor: i mean, he's back to being the white boy he is

Jor: and i love him more now that he realizes he's not black

Me: see i don't see that

Jor: why?

Jor: he's not all like "IM JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE, FUCK ME" anymore.

Me: the like a love you video.. is something i'd see craig david doing.. or even lenny kravits.. his wardrobe goes from grunge rock.. to wannabe homie in a matter of days.. i don't know.. he's just.. not doing anything for me these days..
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Me: see.. he just lost my respect when he did the barbra walters special..

Jor: why?

Me: and he laughed in her face all sarcastic like about not having sex with britney.. it was a straight out diss, that he shouldn't have done.. if he were the good ol country, momma's boy he claims to be... he wouldn't have even thought of doing something like that..

Me: he would have had the respect and dignity to handle that better.. and let britney be the one to announce the loss of her virginity..

Jor: he was just bitter

Jor: the bitch cheated on him twice

Jor: and broke his heart

Me: i don't care how bitter someone is.. you don't do that..

Me: and that's just rumors.. no one knows what truly happened.. but britney and justin.. and their parents..

Me: and i feel that's how it should be.. because that's their private life..

Jor: i don't know, i just love him

Jor: he can make me shriek, any and everytime i see him

Jor: i see my lightswitch plate with him on it, and it makes me grin and blush madly everytime

Jor: he's one person i would love to know when i'm famous

Me: what are you going to be famous for?

Jor: acting

Jor: or even marrying a rich old woman

Jor: and inheriting money

Jor: and be famous like anna nicole

Jor: if she can do it, so can i

Me: she was hot when she was skinny

Jor: or like, i could be on the real world

Jor: every real world needs a gay guy

Me: i wanna be on real world

Me: lol

Jor: or i could be an assistant to a star

Me: you never see big people on real world.. and the cast gets younger and younger each season

Jor: or work at a radio station

Jor: yeah but i could be washing my car in tennessee, and justin could pass by and be like "OH MY GOD THATS JORDAN FROM THE REAL WORLD!"

Me: lol

Jor: radio's a possibility

Jor: but i don't like my voice

Jor: but i could see justin like... often

Jor: and then there's working at trl

Jor: i could be famous for killing cameron diaz

Jor: but justin won't appreciate that

Me: i've always wanted to be a singer.. sang all through school.. elementry through highschool.. in church.. placed 1st in all-state a couple of times.. i know i could do it if i wanted.. but you have to look like britney spears or christina aguilera to make it in that world..

Jor: or would he?

Me: by the looks of those pictures.. with his tongue down her throat.. no i don't think he would..
Jor: ew ew stop

Me: you asked

Jor: she's stupid!

Jor: ugh.

Jor: i just wanna flick her.

Jor: okay i need to stop, i have to sleep, going shopping in 5 hours

Jor: :-* night, anya. love you, and sweet timberlake dreams

Me: blah.. on timberlake

Me: but i'll dream of you ..

Me: er

Me: you with him

Jor: awwww

Me: if that helps your mind

Jor: lmao

Jor: night baby.

Me: night have fun! :-*

and yes i had his permission to post it. *sto @ him* goober! *loves him*

Tue, 25 Nov 2003 16:32:57 GMT

Who are your Celebrity Parents? by opp_girl_4_tp
Your Name
Your Mom	Calista Flockheart
Your Dad	Eminem

Created with quill18's MemeGen!

mom... eww..

dad.. is it bad when you wanna *beep* your dad?

[[Edit: I did Jordan's for the hell of it, and I have to say I'm highly amused at who his parents are.. hahaha]]

Sun, 23 Nov 2003 22:57:17 GMT

it's storming here.. hail's supposed to follow afterwards. i'm not sure if i'll be on tonight.. it's raining soooo hard here. anyway i love you all.

Jordan :-* I love you kiddo.. and hopefully i will get on.. but i can't promise anything..

Zachary's Christmas Pictures, as well as 2 year picture.

Sun, 16 Nov 2003 06:04:43 GMT

Mandi, Zachary's mom, My cousin)

Thu, 30 Oct 2003 05:33:08 GMT

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
queenie4281 goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as The Queen.
astonish gives you 7 blue blueberry-flavoured nuggets.
cctoy tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
delirious tricks you! You lose 5 pieces of candy!
justinrox gives you 11 dark blue watermelon-flavoured gummy worms.
patty_cakes22 tricks you! You lose 5 pieces of candy!
powrhug tricks you! You lose 2 pieces of candy!
secret_angel tricks you! You lose 3 pieces of candy!
simply_jordan gives you 12 yellow grapefruit-flavoured jelly beans.
theboyy gives you 1 brown licorice-flavoured miniature candy bars.
queenie4281 ends up with 15 pieces of candy.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
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Talk with Jordan On...

Thu, 23 Oct 2003 05:10:09 GMT

Him: dsbjfsksdnmadb
Him: i'm in love
Me: he is completely adorable
Me: lol
Him: he's like almost up there with justin
Him: almost
Me: i'd take him over justin any day
Sexalicious Tay: nahh
Sexalicious Tay: i cant
Me: Crock Suckers.. with a flashing r.
Him: i'm loyal to my man
Me: Crock Suckers..
Me: Crock suckers.
Me: Crock Suckers..
Me: Crock suckers.
Him: lol
Me: so in other words..
Me: CrockSuckers
Me: CockSuckers
Me: CrockSuckers
Me: CockSuckers
Him: you know he is one
Him: :-X
Me: you think so?
Him: mm yeah he's bi
Me: where does it say that?
Him: i say that
Me: lol
Him: anya, his shoes MATCHED his shirt
Me: ahaha
Him: i mean justin is all... un matching all the time
Him: hell even lance isnt matching
Him: but that boy was matching
Me: his shoes were red.. his shirt was black and white pinstripes
Me: where's the matching?
Him: nuh uh it was purple
Him: he had purple shoes and purple and black shirt
Him: and who wears purple anyway?
Me: i do..
Me: lol
Me: he does
Him: i mean guy wise
Him: sheesh
Me: justin wears black and hot pink shoes..
Him: mmm i love that boy
Him: dfhkwejdlQs
Me: lol
Me: anyway..
Me: chad..
Me: mmmm
Me: yeah ok..
Him: if chad wore pink and black shoes..
Him: he'd be closer to beating justin
Me: lol

When he was on Sharon O.

REMINDER FOR JORDAN

Wed, 22 Oct 2003 02:58:36 GMT

Chad Michael Murray

on

Sharon

Tomorrow!

Mon, 13 Oct 2003 00:48:50 GMT

So I've spent the last few hours with talking to Jordan and he's calmed me down alot. Guess that's what Husbands our for. :-*

Anyway his stupid computer keeps knocking him like every 3 seconds and this is what he tells me is doing it. It made me laugh. Something I needed at this time. So I'm sharing it with you guys.

Me: you need to stop all that.. *kicks your computer*
Him: i know
Him: it doesn't like it when i dl hot boy porn
Him: :-[
Me: lol
Me: *dies*
Him: yeah yeah i know
Him: but it's really hot
Him: so it's worth it
Me: is it free porn?
Him: yes it's free
Him: i'm dling it from my friend in CA
Him: these two guys suck eachother off and it's all hot cause you can hear the slurping and everything
Him: mmmm

Sun, 12 Oct 2003 22:00:12 GMT

these past few days have not been good for me. i lost my cable. i lost my computer. and i almost lost zachary.

we've been moving the past few days. and i JUST got my computer back up on a CABLE MODEM! but i've been going nuts without it the last two days. jordan i love you and i'm sorry. i'll make it up to you i promise.

we bought our house from a psycho. who was trying to get away with no air, a broken oven.. and alll after the contract said everything was new. so we're not able to move in like we wanted today.

today, while over here working on getting my computer set up, Zachary got outside, in the backyard. and fell in the pool. it took us all of a second to notice he wasn't around. He had just been in my lap. the doors were all closed and locked. and we still can't understand how he got out.

he was blue. he wasn't breathing. he wasn't moving. he was dead. my mom's friend was on the phone with 911. i jumped in the pool and got him to the side. my mom got him out and started cpr. he came too, but i will never be able to get the picture of what he looked like when i grabbed him. he was just laying there. mandi was freaking out. and my other cousin teresa was trying to calm her down. i was drenched and in shock and it didn't hit me until he was in the back of the amabulance, completely ok. that he almost died. and i broke down.

i'm still not ok. i'm in shock i think. i've never in my life experienced something like this before. it's something i NEVER wanna go through again. and i hope no one will ever have to go through it. it was horrible.

he's fine. he hadn't been in the pool no longer then a minute. 2 at the most. he had no water in his lungs when the peramedic came, they checked him out. they all commended us on a job well done. my momma saved his life, with doing the cpr.

it's just.. god i can't even explain what it was like, when i jumped in that water and grabbed him. all i knew was i had to get him to the hands on the side of the pool and quick.

but he is ok. he's ok.. and i have to remember that. they're keeping him over night. and giving him a round of antibiotics to make sure he doesn't get an infection, with his liver and all. but he's ok. he's ok it wasn't his time. he's alive.

Memories..

Tue, 30 Sep 2003 22:09:56 GMT

Watching Nick Carter on Wade's show makes me miss my first, my babies, rpg storyline ever. :-( *sniffles*

Sat, 27 Sep 2003 01:59:56 GMT

EVERYONE CLICK HERE NOW!

and do this for me.. ty

Thu, 18 Sep 2003 13:52:07 GMT

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G-I-P!!!

Tue, 16 Sep 2003 02:27:12 GMT

Thanks goes to Stina for my new icon.

*Admires it* mmmm the mental pictures..

Tue, 09 Sep 2003 01:03:02 GMT

i was up alllll night last night, with that stupid tooth. blah, so i called my denist this morning. he told me to come on in. and they pulled it out. this pain is awful, but so much more bearable then the other. anyway, just letting you all know, that's why i'm not around tonight.. i love you all.. smoochies to everyone..

I love you Jordan.

Whines My Mouth Hurrrrrrrts!

Wed, 03 Sep 2003 00:53:06 GMT

STUPID DENISTS!

Mon, 25 Aug 2003 00:13:08 GMT

I'm leaving tomorrow to head for Houston. We shall arrive late tomorrow night. We're leaving around 5.

Tuesday I don't think me and momma are doing anything, but hanging out at the hotel, and pool.

But come Wednesday, I'm getting to meet Mar and Mer. Weeeeeh! I'm all excited. And maybe take in a mall or something..

On a side note, I'm now a married woman. *shows off ring* I love my husband!

Fri, 15 Aug 2003 04:36:01 GMT

i just wanted to let all of you know that i'm still alive. my last couple of weeks have been hell for me. things have gotten very ugly around here since the death of my father.

anyway Mar and Mer i'm gonna try and get ahold of you guys before the 24th. so we can possibly set things up.

talk to you all soon. hopefully.

i love you jordan and i hope things are getting better for you. :-*

Please tell me it's just a dream..

Fri, 25 Jul 2003 21:55:03 GMT

Today started off well. I woke up to the bright blue eyes and smile of Zachary, tapping my nose and saying "aya.. aya get up.." When I opened my eyes he smiled and said "heeeey."

I knew today wasn't gonna be a good day though. Because I had to have a Hida Scan done. It involves needles. That's enough for me, to ruin my day. They inject you with this liquid, that's a dye. They watch the insides of your stomach for 30 minutes, before injecting you with a new medicine, which has the equivalent of a greasy meal, and it goes straight to your gall bladder. It causes nausea and stomach cramps. It was very "pleasant." I was there for 4 hours, because that's how long the test is. I got the results, and I have to have my gall bladder removed. They are referring us to a surgeon.

My mom brought me home after the scan, and I laid down, because I was exhausted. I was so supposed to go out with a friend of mine, Shirley, and get her car fixed. She called and woke me up, saying she'd be here in about 30 minutes. I laid back down, only to open my eyes at the sound of my mother coming into my room. Her eyes were all red, and swollen.

I sat up and looked at her, worried. She said "I hate seeing my children hurt." She was freaking me out, and you finally told me she got a call from my Daddy's brother, Butch. My dad commited suicide this morning.

He had missed a court hearing, for his dwi arrests, so they sent out a bench warrent. The police went to his house this morning and said they would like to take him in, to schedule another hearing. My dad had been working out in the yard, so he asked him if he could change, then he'd go with them. He went into his room, shut the door, grabbed his mother's hand gun, and shot himself through the heart.

I thought I was still asleep when she told me that. Because it couldn't be true. Things like this don't happen to you or people you know. It's just surreal. Corey came home from work and we told him. Today is just another day for him, he never really knew my dad. But for me, It's like really hard. My whole body feels numb. My heart hurts, I can't stop crying.

I know he wasn't really there for me. But he was there long enough to have happy memories, unlike Corey. He might have made some bad decisions in his life, but he was trying to fix things. He went into rehab, had been alcohol free for 3 months, and I seriously thought he was gonna come out on top.

I just, don't even know where to begin on things. My daddy's dead. He really won't be there to walk me down the aisle.

Thu, 17 Jul 2003 01:48:57 GMT

Mark it on your calanders boys and girls.

Anya is going to see Jordan on his birthday next year. It's marked in stone.

I shall return with crazy stories and funny pictures. So all you Jor Whore's out there keep a look out. hee!

GIP

Sun, 06 Jul 2003 22:51:57 GMT

A big thanks to Sums for my lovely new icon..

Mon, 30 Jun 2003 23:11:00 GMT

hurricane season sucks booty!

blah.. it's been raining almost everyday for a month day. and it's supposed to get WORSE?!

i don't know if i'm gonna be able to take it anymore.

everytime i get on to play or check my mail i get knocked and i can't get back on.

this sooooo sucks..

*goes off to pout.*

REAL WORLD PARIS

Mon, 23 Jun 2003 03:38:00 GMT

Mallory and Ace remind me of my Britney and Drew.. *sniffles*

*misses Britney and Drew*